Monday, September 21, 2009
I've had this song on repeat for the past few days. It is definitely up there in my list of top songs. There is just something about a song that moves you, touches your heart and soul, and in its own way heals you, or makes you dream. That is what great music does for me. I find songs that inspire, understand, challenge, but most of all give me peace. When I listen to this song and close my eyes it is like a story begins to form in my mind and this song is the background for the story that is taking place.
Today one of my best friends moved back here and I am really glad to have her back. I need a good friend right now. I've been thinking a lot (as usual) since my last blog entry and even though I don't have any answers and nothing has changed I am realizing that I can't keep moping around for the next 5 months. I have to move on and make the most of the time I have here. Laughter has become my greatest medicine. I love watching shows that make me laugh because when I am laughing I am not thinking of anything else and boy does it feel good to laugh. I think it is a gift to have people in your life that can truly make you laugh and smile. Nothing is more healing than that. I love to laugh it feels wonderful down to the tips of my feet. That feeling of being happy.
I think a lot of how I am feeling is that I am afraid that I won't ever go. I'm scared that something else will happen to me or that my position will be revoked. I am terrified of the what ifs and my fear is getting the best of me. I'm scared my dream will drift away. This song describes how I am feeling right now...
Labels: Fear, Gravity, Laughter, Lost, Sara Bareilles